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Thursday, April 17, 2014

The Moment



I have previously written about this moment that took place in March of 1970; however, the moment has come back to me every Holy Week since.

From December, 1969, to March, 1970,as a fairly new army officer, I was assigned to the Military District of Washington (D.C.) while attending the Defense Language Institute at Anacostia Naval Station. In early March I received orders to go to Europe. According to the plan, I understood that this assignment was a two-year hiatus prior to being assigned to Vietnam. My feelings were mixed: my gung ho-ism low; my spirituality nonexistent.

I spent the day before I left Washington in the National Gallery of Art. As I wandered from room to room, my attention wasn’t really on the beauty surrounding me. As it has been today, my mind was centered on war in general and specifically on the meaninglessness of the Vietnam War. For weeks the evening news had centered on the courts martial of Lieutenant William Calley and the My Lai Massacre. The incident—the murders—was not something a young army officer like me wanted to consider as he looked down the road to his own involvement in that war.

As I wandered through the rooms of the National Gallery, I questioned my faith in God and my willingness to lead men into combat and, perhaps, to take human lives. I became more and more disheartened.
I was about to leave the museum when I noticed a stairway to a lower level where I had never been. Like descending into the bowels of Hell, I started down the steps. On the lower level, I again wandered around, not really noticing the paintings or sculpture…until I turned and corner. There before me was a huge (5 ft 5 5/8 in x 8 ft 9 1/8 in) oil painting by Salvador Dali that almost covered the entire wall. I stared. I stood and gazed at this astounding painting until the guard told me the gallery was closing.



For me, in the lower level of the National Gallery, it was one of those mountain top experiences that come so rarely into our lives. Not one that immediately changed my life, but one that pointed me in a new direction, a new path. In those moments I truly began the journey of a seeker of shalom.

May you have a blessed and spiritual Maundy Thursday.













Shalom (in blue) and Salaam (in green) meaning Peace
 in Hebrew and Arabic respectively.


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Sunday, April 21, 2013

Sunday Thoughts: The Bishop’s Candlesticks




The Bishop’s Candlesticks

But I say to you that listen, Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who abuse you. If anyone strikes you on the cheek, offer the other also; and from anyone who takes away your coat do not withhold even your shirt. Give to everyone who begs from you; and if anyone takes away your goods, do not ask for them again. Do to others as you would have them do to you. 

If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them. If you do good to those who do good to you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners do the same. If you lend to those from whom you hope to receive, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, to receive as much again. ~ Luke 6. 27-34 (NRSV)

I still do a lot of blogging these days. Since my movement is restricted by a need for oxygen and a bum leg, much of my awake time is spent writing blogs. I suppose one could say that blogging has become my media of ministry. For example, a while back a blogger posted about an incident that had him questioning whether he had done a good deed or been scammed and made a fool of. That reminded me of a decision I made many years ago not to be concerned about being conned, and so I wrote an article about it.

I have been scammed and conned by many folks, often when I knew what they were up to. I made decision to give unconditionally to these folks after I reaVictor Hugo’s Les Misérables (I have yet to see the newly produced film) and thus gained a new understanding of the 6th Chapter of Luke. The story in Les Misérables  that so enlightened me I have labeled “The Bishop’s Candlesticks.” Here is that story as I remember it:

The protagonist, Jean Valjean, after being imprisoned for about 20 years for stealing bread to feed his family, is released but, as an ex-convict, can find no work and is himself on the verge of starvation when he comes upon the residence of a bishop and seeks food from the Bishop’s servants. The Bishop himself invites Valjean into his home and provides him the hospitality of dinner at his own table and a bed for the night. When it comes time to retire, the bishop sends Valjean up to his room with one of the two very expensive silver candlesticks that grace the bishop’s dining table to light his away.

The following morning the servants of the Bishop awaken him with the revelation that not only has their guest departed before breakfast, but he has taken the costly candlestick with him. Later the same morning the police arrive at the Bishops residence with Valjean in custody and inform the bishop that they found the ex-con in possession of the candlestick that was recognized as belonging to the bishop. They asked the bishop to identify the candlestick so that they may charge Valjean with the theft.

The Bishop speaks directly to Valjean rather than the police. He says that he is sorry that Valjean, his guest, departed before sharing a fine breakfast with the him. The Bishop then hands Valjean the mate to the candlestick he had stolen, saying, “You forgot this, my friend. I gave you both candlesticks. What good is one without the other?”

The police release Valjean, who at that moment is changed by forever by the Bishop’s benevolence. He leaves with both candlesticks, walks to a nearby town, sells them, and using the proceeds, becomes a wealthy factory owner, known for his honesty, generosity, and just dealings who eventually becomes mayor of the town.



Of course, there is much more to the book, but this story that I have told many times. I usually use it as a story that I tell without commenting upon it, thus allowing those who hear it glean whatever they need.

Blessed  are those who have ears to hear and faith to act. Amen.



Tuesday, April 16, 2013

St. Patrick's Breastplate: For my shield this day I call...

Because of the pain, sorrow, anger and compassion for the horrendous suffering in Boston yesterday,  I include in my meditations the powerful prayer known as St. Patrick’s Breastplate


St. Patrick's Breastplate
For my shield this day I call:
A mighty power:
The Holy Trinity!
Affirming threeness,
Confessing oneness,
In the making of all
Through love…
For my shield this day I call:
Christ’s power in his coming
and in his baptising,
Christ’s power in his dying
On the cross, his arising
from the tomb, his ascending;
Christ’s power in his coming
for judgment and ending.
For my shield this day I call:
strong power of the seraphim,
with angels obeying,
and archangels attending,
in the glorious company
of the holy and risen ones,
in the prayers of the fathers,
in visions prophetic
and commands apostolic,
in the annals of witness,
in virginal innocence,
in the deeds of steadfast men.
For my shield this day I call:
Heaven’s might,
Sun’s brightness,
Moon’s whiteness,
Fire’s glory,
Lightning’s swiftness,
Wind’s wildness,
Ocean’s depth,
Earth’s solidity,
Rock’s immobility.
This day I call to me:
God’s strength to direct me,
God’s power to sustain me,
God’s wisdom to guide me,
God’s vision to light me,
God’s ear to my hearing,
God’s word to my speaking,
God’s hand to uphold me,
God’s pathway before me,
God’s shield to protect me,
God’s legions to save me:
from snares of the demons,
from evil enticements,
from failings of nature,
from one man or many
that seek to destroy me,
anear or afar.
Around me I gather
these forces to save
my soul and my body
from dark powers that assail me:
against false prophesyings,
against pagan devisings,
against heretical lying
and false gods all around me.
Against spells cast by women
by blacksmiths, by Druids,
against knowledge unlawful
that injures the body,
that injures the spirit.
Be Christ this day my strong protector;
against poison and burning,
against drowning and wounding,
through reward wide and plenty …
Christ beside me, Christ before me;
Christ behind me, Christ within me;
Christ beneath me, Christ above me;
Christ to right of me, Christ to left of me;
Christ in my lying, my sitting, my rising;
Christ in heart of all who know me,
Christ on tongue of all who meet me,
Christ in eye of all who see me,
Christ in ear of all who hear me.
For my shield this day I call
a mighty power:
the Holy Trinity!
affirming threeness,
confessing oneness
in the making of all -
through love…
For to the Lord belongs salvation,
and to the Lord belongs salvation
and to Christ belongs salvation.
May your salvation, Lord, be
with us always.
(Domini est salus, Domini est salus,
Christi est salus;
Salus tua, Domine, sit semper nobiscum).











Wednesday, April 25, 2012

I Can't Help but Wonder



Freedom's just another word for nothin' left to lose,
And nothin' aint worth nothin' but it's free.



Kris Kristofferson wrote that in the song Me and Bobby McGee. Free is how I prefer to live my life!






At the moment, my apartment mate, Anne, and I have so much freedom we literally have nothin' left to lose:
  • no money
  • no food
  • no gasoline
...until another week goes by when my pension check is deposited into my bank account. 


In the past 2 weeks, I've sold 40 or so books from my library shelves so that they now look so empty I feel like crying. And the damned bookbuying gave only $0.50 each for some of my closest friends.  Anne has sold her beloved 8-track stereo, her softball glove and spiked shoes. We have both pawned our guitars. 


Anne and I need to go to critical medical appointments tomorrow and Friday; however, I don't have enough gasoline to get to even one of them. I've attempted to borrow $25.00 from family members for the gas and just a bit of food. No response from anyone. My freedom is killing me.








I would like to use my freedom to wander!


Tommy Paxton’s I Can’t Help to Wonder Where I’m Bound is one of 2 songs I considered my “theme songs” when I was in my early 20s. 




I suppose that now, even in my 60s, it could still live the wander's theme/life style, well, if my health keeps improving as fast a it has been the past several months I could. 


It would be grand to wander with a purpose... maybe to promote peace and justice in this would. That idea is reflectde in my second theme song,





So, here I am...free, with nothing hold me down. And I want to roam. And I wonder where I'm bound. 

But, damn it, I am so hungry. And so concerned about gasoline to drive Anne and me to the physicans. And becoming depressed by all of this nothing left to lose freedom!

However, I still have faith that...



ADDED 9:30 PMHalf the crisis solved with the appearance of a very unlikely angel! Anne and I have food through Sunday and my pension check should be deposited on Tuesday. I'm hoping we have gas to get Anne to and from her medical appointment. (I've never run out of gas in this CR-V, so I have no idea how much fuel I have in the tank. The fuel gauge reads below the empty line).


Thursday, January 13, 2011

I Was Overwhelmed by Fear

The massacre in Tucson really affected me. I have had to reevaluate my response to the political right wing. I find that the words of pundits such a Rush Limbaugh, Glenn Beck, and Sarah Palin frustrate and anger me. However, frustration and anger are not the emotions that drive me. That is fear.

I was overwhelmed by fear. The rational basis of my apprehension is history. I’ll not go into that other than saying the action of the contemporary U.S. right wing parallel the end of the Roman Republic as well as the rise of 20th Century dictatorships. I may expand on this in a future blog post. This fear is intellectual and rationale.

A second form of fear I experienced that is evinced by the words of the right wing pundits is purely emotional. Actually, this fear is closely related to grief and even more closely related to survival.

The extremists of the right wing have been threatening to do away with Social Security, Medicare, and Medicaid for decades. I survive because of Social Security and Medicare. Without them I would have no shelter, food, or health care. If the Republicans and Tea Party do take Social Security, Medicare, and Medicaid away from the American people, many of us will die.

I said that this dear is purely emotional. I do not rationally believe that Congress will end these program, although there is the possibility that Congress can gut them. Whatever! When I have heard the vitriol of hate, prejudice, and oppression coming from the mouths of Glenn, Rush, and Sarah in regard to anything I believe is important, I want (and have) returned volley for volley (to use a Palin-type metaphor).

After reflecting upon the words that President Obama spoke in Tucson on Wednesday, I again remember that I cannot be driven by fear.
The loss of these wonderful people should make every one of us strive to be better in our private lives - to be better friends and neighbors, co-workers and parents. And if, as has been discussed in recent days, their deaths help usher in more civility in our public discourse, let's remember that it is not because a simple lack of civility caused this tragedy, but rather because only a more civil and honest public discourse can help us face up to our challenges as a nation, in a way that would make them proud. It should be because we want to live up to the example of public servants like John Roll and Gabby Giffords, who knew first and foremost that we are all Americans, and that we can question each other's ideas without questioning each other's love of country, and that our task, working together, is to constantly widen the circle of our concern so that we bequeath the American dream to future generations.
I believe we can be better. Those who died here, those who saved lives here - they help me believe. We may not be able to stop all evil in the world, but I know that how we treat one another is entirely up to us. I believe that for all our imperfections, we are full of decency and goodness, and that the forces that divide us are not as strong as those that unite us.
That's what I believe, in part because that's what a child like Christina Taylor Green believed. Imagine: here was a young girl who was just becoming aware of our democracy; just beginning to understand the obligations of citizenship; just starting to glimpse the fact that someday she too might play a part in shaping her nation's future. She had been elected to her student council; she saw public service as something exciting, something hopeful. She was off to meet her congresswoman, someone she was sure was good and important and might be a role model. She saw all this through the eyes of a child, undimmed by the cynicism or vitriol that we adults all too often just take for granted.
I want us to live up to her expectations. I want our democracy to be as good as she imagined it. All of us - we should do everything we can to make sure this country lives up to our children's expectations.
Christina was given to us on September 11th, 2001, one of 50 babies born that day to be pictured in a book called "Faces of Hope." On either side of her photo in that book were simple wishes for a child's life. "I hope you help those in need," read one. "I hope you know all of the words to the National Anthem and sing it with your hand over your heart. I hope you jump in rain puddles."
If there are rain puddles in heaven, Christina is jumping in them today. And here on Earth, we place our hands over our hearts, and commit ourselves as Americans to forging a country that is forever worthy of her gentle, happy spirit.
May God bless and keep those we've lost in restful and eternal peace. May He love and watch over the survivors. And may He bless the United States of America." (Complete text HERE)
 
I regret that I have responded to the right wing, volley for volley. That action is not the Way of peacemaking. Also, being driven by fear is the way wars begin. I regret that I have allowed myself to be snared in that web.

There is, for me, only one way of not being driven by fear! It is simple: I must remember than I am not alone.

 

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

The Little Red Book


I WILL HAVE A POSITIVE
OUTLOOK ON LIFE
 I will have a positive outlook on life today, an attitude that will allow me to experience joy and move me on a path of acceptance, love and freedom. I have the power to change the way I think. I can choose to change my attitudes, and this is what gives ne freedom. ~ Daily Affirmations for Adult Children of Alcoholics, Health Communications, Inc., 1985

If you have been following me on Facebook, then you may be aware that I am in the midst of a major crisis and have been for a week. To end the crisis, I need the support and guidance of lots of people. I also need to locate some documents from several years ago – one documents that I received and another documents that I sent. 


Again, as I’m sure you must be aware, I am not a neat freak. I have boxes and boxes of stuff, primarily stored in my spare bedroom.


Last week I went through about fifteen boxes, throwing away seven 30-gallon garbage bags of stuff that I need not have saved. As I went through those boxes, I became more and more exasperated at not finding the documents. I even began tottering on the edge of sever depression, as anxiety began to drive my actions.

Saturday, July 17th, I awakened long before dawn, having slept less than three hours. I was a wreck. Still, I began going through more boxes. In one I found a book, Daily Affirmations for Adult Children of Alcoholics, that I had not seen in years. There was a page marker in it; when I opened the book to that page, I was astounded to discover that the daily reading was for July17th! It seems to me that many years ago I had stopped reading on the previous page and now I was taking up from where I had stopped.

The quotation above is the beginning of the July 17th reading. As exhausted and down as I was, to took time to read that entry and then to meditate on it. I changed my attitude. I sought the positives in this crisis. And I decided to postpone my anxiety-driven search and allow myself a weekend of rest and re-creation.

I did. It worked. Today I have continued the process of seeking the documents as well as making contacts to obtain guidance in dealing with it. I have also discovered benefits from my search. For example, besides finding the Daily Affirmations book, I also located a ring that I purchased in (I think) New Mexico quite a few years ago.
 

I also located the activation codes for Microsoft Office, Paperport, and Corel Video Studio, expensive (for me) programs that I have not be able to use since my computer crashed several years ago because I couldn’t find the activation codes.  I can now use all three.

There is one more benefit to the crisis and my “cleaning out” the boxes of stuff. I need to move soon, to a much smaller place. A few weeks ago I began receiving the services of a financial adviser who works with the agency that provides my primary home health care. After looking at my finances, he pointed out that the guideline for housing costs is 30% of one’s income. For the past several years I have been expending 68 – 75% of my income, depending on heating costs. Therefore I am seeking a place to live that is with that 30% guideline.

Obviously, those seven 30-gallon garbage bags of stuff will not have to be moved to my new home (wherever that may be). As I continue to go through the boxes still in my spare bedroom, finding all sorts of treasures (including, I pray, the two documents that I am seeking), I shall fill and dispose of more bags of refuse.

One final thought, throughout most of my life I have lived by the belief that God provides what I need. It is when, as I did last week, I depend solely on myself becoming anxious and depressed that bad things happen to me. It is when I let go of the anxiety and depression that good (God) things happen.\

I share the blessings that I am receiving with you, my friends.






Sunday, December 20, 2009

The Iconoclastic God




I want to suggest that Christmas is all about God as iconoclast, all about turning this world upside-down. And we don’t like it. We struggle against it.
Through the years I have posted several sermons on Nick's Bytes. Almost all have been written by me, although often I have not told you that the post began as a sermon. (I come to learn tha some people are really turned off my the word).



Today, on the Fourth Sunday of Advent, I want to share with you a sermon written by someone else: the Reverend Doug Fowler, pastor of my home congregation, Salem United Church of Christ in Louisville, Kentucky. This sermon is very contemporary; as a matter of fact, Doug is in the pulpit at Salem preaching it today.


Doug's sermon is much more than contemporary: it speaks of the God in whom I believe and serve. This God is not content with the status quo, especially when the status quo tolerates and may even promote injustice, intolerance, oppression, hatred, and brutality. This is a God who does the unexpected, even when folks believe that the status quo (the expected) is God's will.


Enough of my words! Please take just a moment to read and hear Doug's words:


Micah 5:2-5a

But you, O Bethlehem of Ephrathah,
   who are one of the little clans of Judah,
from you shall come forth for me
   one who is to rule in Israel,
whose origin is from of old,
   from ancient days.
Therefore he shall give them up until the time
   when she who is in labor has brought forth;
then the rest of his kindred shall return
   to the people of Israel.
And he shall stand and feed his flock in the strength of the Lord,
   in the majesty of the name of the Lord his God.
And they shall live secure, for now he shall be great
   to the ends of the earth;
and he shall be the one of peace. 



Luke 1:46b-55

[And Mary said,] “My soul magnifies the Lord, and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior, for he has looked with favor on the lowliness of his servant. Surely, from now on all generations will call me blessed; for the Mighty One has done great things for me, and holy is his name. His mercy is for those who fear him from generation to generation. He has shown strength with his arm; he has scattered the proud in the thoughts of their hearts. He has brought down the powerful from their thrones, and lifted up the lowly; he has filled the hungry with good things, and sent the rich away empty. He has helped his servant Israel, in remembrance of his mercy, according to the promise he made to our ancestors, to Abraham and to his descendants forever.” 



In the 15th century of the Common Era, there were plenty of folks around who felt that this world needed some serious repentance, some heavy duty reforming, and some figured that needed to start with the two most powerful and biggest institutions/organizations in town—the government (kings) and the Church (Pope). Both Church and government wanted to blame the other for virtually everything that went wrong, to the extent that either admitted that anything was wrong—and not much has changed since.
In the period known as the Reformation, our own ecclesiastical forebears were of two types: those who wanted to keep some forms—stained glass, ancient language, vestments, clergy—and those who wanted to start church over from scratch. Interestingly, most of the players on both sides of the argument were inside the Church already, making it an in-house squabble, like Martin Luther on the one side and Ulrich Zwingli on the other. In short, these are all good persons with good ideas, but they couldn’t figure out how to reconcile them. The established Church wanted to—still wants—keep things as they are. One the other side were—are—iconoclasts, or image-breakers, who attack the traditional images or ideas or institutions with ideas for revising them or creating new ones. The ancestors of this congregation would have been among the iconoclasts—as would the Pilgrims and Baptists and a variety of other religious expressions. The hard part of all that is that keeping up with iconoclasm is not easy, requires constant creativity and willingness to abandon ideas or projects in which folks have been heavily invested.
I want to suggest that Christmas is all about God as iconoclast, all about turning this world upside-down. And we don’t like it. We’ll struggle against it. Let me explain.
About 2800 years ago, Palestine was suffering from oppressive neighbors—much like today. The prophet Micah said to his countrymen that this too would pass, that they would know better days. He told them to remember King David and look for someone like that to come and make them whole. The major clue was that this new David would come from Bethlehem, the most backwater and rinky-dink town in the land. This nothing-place would be the source of messiah, God’s granted one. See how the story is going? Well, when we look for messiahs in our time, where do we look? Our iconic image is Abraham Lincoln in a log cabin in Hodgenville. God’s anointed one comes from an unlikely place that turns everything upside-down. We think can any good athlete come out of a fifth-rate school? Can any good physician come out of that hospital? Can any good statesman come out of that country? Well, God says that God’s leaders, messiah, will spring from the least likely of sources, and it will be God’s choice. When we look for messiah, we need to look in unlikely places and at unlikely times. What’s why we need to be alert, lest we get caught looking the wrong way or at the wrong place. God turns things upside-down. Christmas is a time of turning upside-down. Make no mistake: when the prophet tells us all to repent, it’s about turning things upside-down.
Revolutions are about turning things upside-down. God is doing a revolutionary thing with Christmas. Luke tells us that Mary sang with her relative Elizabeth. This is a song that has been banned by some governments that take the Bible more seriously than our own because it is revolutionary; it is about turning things upside down. It’s a transcript of resistance by an oppressed people that looks for God to turn that oppression upside down. The Magnificat is politically dangerous, and over history political authorities have worried that it might incite oppressed people to riot. So, they interpret it in different ways.
Like all prayers, Mary’s song begins with praise and gratitude, and then goes on to note how God turns kings and nations topsy-turvy. Herod would have been a case in point, named by the Romans the “King of the Jews”. People like Mary were the ones who paid for the schemes hatched by Herod, who was hated in part because hew as Jewish and working against his own people! He knew how the people felt, so he imprisoned 70 Jewish elders with instructions that they were to be executed the day Herod died so there would be some mourning in the land. Human rights would be a foreign concept in ancient Palestine.
Messiah, to at least some in Palestine, meant relief from the power of the government. The coming of Jesus was the foundation of desperate hope, and Mary, the pregnant teenaged child-woman, sang about it. Mary sings about God reversing everything, turning everything upside-down: who’s in will now be out, who’s up will now be down, the winners will be the losers. The world of conventional wisdom says that blessed or happy are the beautiful, happy are the successful, happy are the powerful, happy are the secure, happy is Herod. But the Magnificat says all that will be reversed with Messiah. And a few years later, a rabbi came along who told whoever would listen:”Blessed are the poor, blessed are the hungry, blessed at the meek.” No wonder folks got upset with messiah, and even today would rather turn to a prosperity gospel!
The rabbi, called Jesus, couldn’t overthrow Herod by using Herod’s methods though. Using terror to get rid of terror won’t work, he said. He couldn’t out-Herod Herod. What Messiah could do is out-love Herod and defeat Herod’s capacity to hate by his greater capacity to suffer and love. He would humble himself—be born in a barn to unwed parents in an unconventional family, grow up in poverty, work with his hands. He would teach wherever people would listen. He would be accused unfairly, tried corruptly, and mocked. He would be executed. No wonder our worlds have a hard tome with all this. No wonder our worlds want to turn it down and around, water it down, make it slide down easily.
This story of Christmas is amazing in how much it turns things over, and we make it all so sweet as to take the bite out of it. The story has Mary singing the same song that Hannah sang at the birth of Samuel, her first-born whom she was giving up for adoption by the Temple cult. In a way, both women are losing their children. Samuel would be the priest who spoke with God on behalf of God’s people and who worked hard to get the people to be righteous, a forerunner of King David. And Jesus Messiah would come out of the last likely of places, and he would remake the world. And Mary’s pregnancy, like that of Elizabeth, would be unlikely; Messiah comes to us in unlikely ways. This would strike speechless Elizabeth’s husband, the Rev. Zechariah. Messiah does that—which helps me dismiss plenty of loud-mouthed preachers. We need to be looking for arrival of Messiah in the least likely places: poor women, bush league towns, the naïve and the undeveloped, above all, the powerless. Messiah will come out of nowhere—and we’re too likely to be looking another way.
I don’t believe that we’ve ever had a Messiah the equal of Jesus. I do believe there have been others sent by God to turn things upside-down after the fashion of Jesus, and I do believe that we look for more of those. In the meantime, we practice what we know.
For example, I think that Mohandas Gandhi is a Messiah, an anointed one. He came out of nowhere, was not highly thought of, was “despised and rejected of people”. He came out of a detested minority in South Africa, he was dishonored in his lifetime, he was assassinated. But he turned the world upside-down. After him the British Empire had to free India. After him, the “coloreds” of South Africa took more control of their lives. After him, there was a viable program for fighting oppressive regimes without using violence. Notice that he wasn’t even Christian, though he did teach some very fine lessons to Christians.
Another example is Martin Luther King and the civil rights movement in this country. You may remember better than I how things were in the days of Jim Crow around here. Dr. King let the oppressive forces beat him, badmouth him, jail him, insult him, murder him. The result was an overturn of society. Jim Crow was turned upside-down. I believe that was a messianic moment, because it was really all about people having abundant life, about oppression being lifted, about society being transformed and by someone who came out of nowhere, and was not part of the elite and acted in a peaceable manner.
A different kind of messianic figure, for me, is Jean Vanier. His father was the King’s representative, the Governor-General of Canada, his brother was a monsignor in Montreal, and hew as an artillery officer in the Royal Nave in World War II. We’re talking about a high-power family here. After the war, Vanier studied at the Sorbonne for a doctorate. A priest there took him to a suburb of Paris where he met, providentially, two young men who were institutionalized because they were too mentally handicapped to live on their own. They asked him a question of justice: why do you live in this big house all alone when we must be crowded into that crummy institution? How come you have good food and we don’t? Why do you have some meaning to your life and we just go day to day? Vanier’s answer to them was to take them into his house and they would live together and the rules that governed their lives would be the Sermon on the Mount. Thus began L’Arche (“the Ark” from the Biblical story of a refuge from the storm.) which now has about 100 communities around the world. My point is that Jean Vanier turned everything upside down—he was rich and became poor for them, and they who were poor became rich. Christmas is all about turning everything upside-down, about the rejects going to the head of the line, the oppressed being set free. That’s messianic.
One more messianic example that comes to my mind is Millard Fuller. He was working his way through school—so silver spoons for him—and he made out just fine, except that his life felt empty. The things of this world don’t always satisfy, but what wonderful things have you ever heard come out of Alabama? Fuller took a rest at a community in Georgia to clear his mind. What he learned there was that God’s plan for creation is not destruction and pain, but wholeness. His motto became “No More Shacks” and he put his talents to work organizing a non-governmental, biblically-based program that provides decent housing for all God’s children. He started the program in Africa and it has spread around the world. We know it as Habitat for Humanity. It turns housing upside-down. It works too: its default rate in mortgages is minimal—and people get decent housing and, with it, some degree of self-respect. That’s, I think, messianic.
I want to tell you about Paul Farmer too, but there’s not time.
Now, I hasten to add that no messianic figure since Jesus has measured up to him for righteousness and holiness and purity. None that I know of has ever claimed to do so. What they have all done is turned this world upside down, have let the oppressed go free, turned this world around. Messianic figures—there could be some in this very congregation—in any age, to greater or lesser degrees long for a time when all suffering will end and everyone will have enough, when nations and families will live in peace, and the earth will be restored and healed of the damage that has been done. It’s a vision of the future—which simply means that we’re not finished yet; we have more work to do. Mary had the nerve and the imagination to claim such futures for herself and for her people. What’s passed along to us is the challenge to do no less.
May that be truth for us for the living of these days. Amen.





Saturday, December 05, 2009

Grace at 4:00 AM





I ended my tirade against banks and bankers on Friday with these words:

My next adventure in the corrupt world of money is to find out why my Social Security benefit check is $110.37 less this month than it was last month.
Thus I spent most Friday on the telephone and Internet in contact (or trying to make contact) with three Federal agencies: the Social Security Administration, the Department of the Treasury, and the Veterans Administration. I shall not go into detail about the contacts; I did write as a sort of on-going narrative on Facebook. If you want more than the brief summary below, you may access me on Facebook at: http://www.facebook.com/sometimes.saintly.nick

That said, the following is part of the Facebook on-going narrative:

The $110 taken from my Social Security check this month was done by the Treasury Department for the Veterans Administration. It seems that I am not paying enough monthly of the Rx co-pay to VA. I have been paying them what I can afford, $10 - $30 per month, depending upon what I have after paying my utility bills. This is a hell of a Christmas present!

After the experience, like the Hebrews in bondage in Egypt, I cried out:

My God! How come every time I think that I have caught up financially something like this happens to take away the little progress I thought I had made! This is one hell of a Christmas present.
This post is about grace. I am defining grace as:
a
the freely given, unmerited favor and love of God.
b.
the influence or spirit of God operating in humans to regenerate or strengthen them.

Yesterday's hours dealing with the Federal bureaucracy exhausted me. I also felt despondent to the point of an on-coming episode of transient situational depression. Therefore, I went to bed early, like before 10:00 PM. Alex joined me and we snuggled and snoozed. After about five or so hours of this, I awakened, decided that I had had enough sleep, and the furball and I got up.

After feeding Alex and splashing water on my face, I had to deal with my inquisitive cat who wanted to go outside even though it was still very dark and the temperature was only 28 F. (Crazy cat!)

When I opened the door for Alex, I remembered that, with all of my busy-ness yesterday, I had neglected to check the mailbox. I did and was surprised with a graciousness that amazed me.

There, among the junk mail and Christmas catalogs, I encountered an envelope from the Pension Boards of the United Church of Christ. Inside that envelope was a Christmas gift for us retired and disabled pastors. The check was large enough to replace the funds that the VA took from my Social Security check!

I do not know why this amazes me! It has happened time and time again in my life: unexpected and undeserved grace has come to me over and over and over again.

And, so I ask myself (again), why did I allow the VA's actions to create a despondency in my me? Why did I not have faith that God would provide for my needs? Why do I not remember:


‘Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air; they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And can any of you by worrying add a single hour to your span of life? And why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not clothed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? Therefore do not worry, saying, “What will we eat?” or “What will we drink?” or “What will we wear?”   ~ Matthew 6:25-31



Thursday, April 09, 2009

Remembering Washington, D.C., March, 1970


National Gallery of Art
Washington, D.C.

I have already about this event that took place in March of 1970, but it all came back to me yesterday and, besides, I think it makes a good story for Maundy Thursday.

From December, 1969, to March, 1970,as a fairly new army officer, I was assigned to the Military District of Washington (D.C.) while attending the Defense Language Institute at Anacostia Naval Station. In early March I received orders to go to Europe. According to the plan, I understood that this assignment was a two-year hiatus prior to being assigned to Vietnam. My feelings were mixed: my gung ho-ism low; my spirituality nonexistent.

I spent the day before I left Washington in the National Gallery of Art. As I wandered from room to room, my attention wasn’t really on the beauty surrounding me. As it has been today, my mind was centered on war in general and specifically on the meaninglessness of the Vietnam War. For weeks the evening news had centered on the courts martial of Lieutenant William Calley and the My Lai Massacre. The incident—the murders—was not something a young army officer like me wanted to consider as he looked down the road to his own involvement in that war.

As I wandered through the rooms of the National Gallery, I questioned my faith in God and my willingness to lead men into combat and, perhaps, to take human lives. I became more and more disheartened.

I was about to leave the museum when I noticed a stairway to a lower level where I had never been. Like descending into the bowels of Hell, I started down the steps. On the lower level, I again wandered around, not really noticing the paintings or sculpture…until I turned and corner. There before me was a painting by Salvador Dali that almost covered the entire wall. I stared. I stood and gazed at this astounding painting until the guard told me the gallery was closing.


For me, in the lower level of the National Gallery, it was one of those mountain top experiences that come so rarely into our lives. Not one that immediately changed my life, but one that pointed me in a new direction, a new path. In those moments I truly began the journey of a seeker of shalom.

May you have a blessed and spiritual Maundy Thursday.